Pain to the ones you love.

What’s worse than seeing someone you love be in so much pain that they can’t even get out of bed? I’ll tell you, nothing. Nothing is worst than seeing your mom in so much pain from chemo that she can’t even get out of bed. Her mussels are weak and her skin burns, the effects of chemo on the body is a pain that unless you have gone through it before.

I was sitting in bed with my mom earlier this week, and while I kept her company and brought her food all she did all day was sleep, that was all she could do and every now and again she would change her position in bed. When she was awake I tried to talk to her about how she was feeling.

How are you doing mommy?

“I’m okay tired, my back hurts and I get hot and cold.” She answered, her voice quiet and short of breath.

I asked if I could do anything to help her, she simply smiled at me and said, “Just keep being strong for me and for your sisters.”

Now if that doesn’t break a daughter's heart, I don’t know what will.

I always tell myself that time flies by and I hate that a year goes by in what feels like a month, but after my mom started going through the chemo for her breast cancer I can’t tell you how badly I want time to fly by and for this to be over, and for her to be strong and have beaten this monster that has taken over our lives.